Thursday, March 6, 2008

My next Season of Motherhood

Well, I have been having a hard time getting adjusted to this new season of my life that I am transitioning into. Chayse is not nursing anymore and it has made me realize that I am truly, really, actually done with the "birthing" phase of my life.

That is a very hard thing for me to accept. Not that I am not looking forward to this next phase that is not so dependant on me or my body! But, that I will never carry another life inside me, or be the sole nourishment for my baby is very sad. I have to tell myself to enjoy them all and realize that my kids ARE dependant on me still. They still -very much so- need their mommy!

Time flies by so quickly and I just get adjusted to the season I am in, and I am thrust into another one. I have this one down pat, lemme tell ya! I can mother an infant pretty darn well! I've got a schedule and a routine that runs like a well-oiled machine (most days!). But the toddlers and 4 year olds are harder. They aren't as moldable into my schedule. And don't get me started on 2nd graders. I have to adjust to THEIR schedule! Football, baseball, taekwondo....

Just when I get comfortable with my abilities, I get tested and the kids are older and smarter. I guess I will grow right along with them and we will weather these seasons together.

2 comments:

6HappyHearts said...

I hear ya! I went to a couple of baby showers back to back w/newborns & I did grieve a little?! There's something wonderful about carrying your child in your womb for 9 mos. & then carrying them in your arms for another year. They just grow up too fast!!!
miss ya! xo-j

~Tara~ said...

Hugs, hugs, hugs! I may have one more, but right now I am living vicariously through my sisters.

What gets me is the thought of being a grandma! OMG!